Yesterday,
my new boss quit, a month and a half to the day of my previous boss quitting. She was still only in the role as a temporary
substitute, having never had it made permanent, but it still feels like another
setback. I can’t fault her decision,
which was driven by a need to be closer to home and be more readily-available to
her family. But at the same time, I feel
abandoned.
I
am now the sole lead left in the office.
Worse still, I am the sole person left on my entire row! It is very lonely, not just the physical loneliness
of not having anyone to talk to, but the feeling like an ally and confidant is
gone. We had grown very close, especially
in the last month, and now I feel as if I’m on an island by myself, attempting to
fight off a vicious band of cannibals with a shoe and a paperclip. It might have been smoke and mirrors, but I
felt safer knowing that someone was there who had my back. Like we outnumbered “them” somehow. And now that the odds are evened, I feel
vulnerable, like my armor has been stripped off and my skin laid bare.
