Not How I Imagined

Well, I have been a manager for three weeks now, and it hasn’t turned out like I had hoped.  I was telling my wife this morning that you get these things in life that you want so much, that you get obsessed about, and they become like gods.  You spend your time striving for them.  You look to them to give you identity and purpose.  You expect them to bring you fulfillment and joy.  And then when you finally obtain them, you don’t feel any of those things.  It’s like a great, big reality check, and you suddenly realize that you have been wasting your time striving after the wrong things.

Only God can give you identity and purpose.  Only God can bring you fulfillment and joy.  I should have spent more time seeking Him and less time caring about a stupid position or title.  But I feel like I had to learn this lesson.  I feel like God had to break me over the rock, so that I could finally open my eyes and live.  I still feel like He will do something with me in this place, and maybe now that my agenda is out of the way, His plan can come to pass.